Time whispered to me
words of hell
seduced and dazed by hopes of a better life
.......a better world
Only in Hell
Call upon the force that might be
Crushed by the weight of its presence
sell the life of my soul
in exchange for a pit of worms
Time called out to me
offered words of wisdom.
Bodies in the battlefield
bloodied and wounded at best.
Draw from the well of hope
springs forth nothing but rocks of hate
bleeding from the hail of stones
no armour but skin and bones
Aug 29/96
I wrote this just prior to a suicide attempt in which I took
50 pills of 50mg Elavil and went to bed. I was found wandering the hallway
of my apartment building half naked and incoherent. When I woke up
in ICU, I could not recall any of the events which occurred after I had
gone to bed. It was just another black hole.
