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Date: Sun, 09 Nov 1997 09:38:38 -0400
From: Ray Garraty
To: clburke@carolyn.org
Subject: Hey there...
Hello, Carolyn. It's me again, not that the name looks familiar to
you, but I've written you before, and expressed a few things to you I
thought might help.
You seem in a longing for someone in your life, someone to love
"broadly", but is that what you really want? You seem like the kind of
woman that is hard to understand, also the kind of woman that is hard to
meet on her level. The kind of woman who demands a lot, for she has
ever right to, given who she is.
We spend our lives enriching the spirit, the soul, making ourselves
better and better. We do this because we want to be better received by
the world abroad, never once considering that the more we put in, the
more seperate we make ourselves. My friend has been looking for work
for a long time, and he keeps getting told the same thing, that he is
over-qualified for the job. And, when he does get work, he's never
satisfied with it, for he demands more than menial labour. He wants to
put his talents, his learnings to work, apply them as he was taught to.
But, finding a job to suit his genius isn't an easy thing, by any
stretch of the imagination.
And, so, I think it's the same with you. Finding someone to match
you, to live with you on your level, maybe even to Love you in pace with
you, isn't going to be something that is easy to do. And, I wonder if
that is what you really want. Sometimes you're so caught up in the
pursuit of something that you don't have time for such simple things,
and then at other times you seem so at a loss, that you'd give most of
it up for a few moments of unadulterated happiness. I wish I knew you
better to help give you some advice that might help, but alas, I'm sorry
to say that I don't, and try as I might to help you, I have to wonder if
I'm qualified to be doing so.
I am, after all, nothing more than a little boy stumbling through
life myself, trying to pick up a few nuggest along the way, trying not
to bump into too many people.
Hang in there, Carolyn. In time, with patience, with an open mind,
I'm sure that you will have your dreams filled, and you will get what
you want. What you have to do is really decide, deep down in yourself,
what it is that you *do* want, and then strive for it, relentlessly, and
not allow other things to consume and cloud your judgement.
Adieu! I always made an awkward bow...
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